... I'm not even sure how to tell this story. It's so embarrassing for me- and I thought about leaving out some details, but I think my husband deserves some praise for this.
Last week before we went to Hong Kong, Scott and I had a very big argument. We have little disagreements all the time that ends with him tickling me to make me laugh, but every once in a while we have a knock down drag out.... which are usually because I can't let the little things go and because he's messy.
Anyway, long story short, I was really mad, and trying to make him mad, so I did what I knew would make him angry.
I went to the dog market and bought the first puppy I saw. I knew it would make him angry because I we've agreed not to do things out of spite, and I promised to wait until we were settled into our new home to get another dog.
I succeeded in making him mad... and the regret was overwhelming. Scott's face broke my heart when he saw the dog. It turns out, while I was buying a dog that he had asked me to wait on, Scott was home cleaning the kitchen for me and trying to mop our concrete floors to try and make things up to me.
I had bought the dog flippantly and didn't really choose him for any particular reason (goes to show how irrational I was)... so I was surprised when I began to adore him. I begged Scott to let me keep him, even though I knew I didn't deserve it. I fully expected Scott to take him back to the dog market and be angry at me for days... instead we talked about the argument and we both said "I'm sorry" He saw how much I wanted to keep him, agreed we could keep him if he was a healthy dog.
I think it's important to mention that Scott really didn't want a dog... and even though he didn't want one, he promised we could get one because he knows it helps with the loneliness.
I'm so blessed to have such a forgiving and gentle husband... and now every time I play with our sweet puppy I resolve in my mind to try and be slow to anger and quick to forgive. I also resolve to try and push my fiery temper away and be a godly, gentle woman like the Bible describes.
I'm so embarrassed that I do such irrational things when I get angry... and I admit that it doesn't take much to get me fired up. I look at Scott who finds it so easy to let things go and wish I could be like that... of course, look at the forgiveness God gave us, and at such a price. I'm reminded of
Luke 7:47 "So I'm telling you that her sins, as many as they are, have been forgiven, and that's why she has shown such great love. But the one to whom little is forgiven loves little."
I love you Scott! I praise God for your loving leadership.
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