He Stands Alone, Who Can Oppose Him?

Catching up...

~October 12th I went into surgery at Bumrungrad International Hospital in Bangkok, Thailand.

Scott and I have longed for children for a long time, so when a year- plus of trying went by and when my menstrual cramps went from terrible to pulling-out-my-hair- terrible, we decided to consult a doctor.

Scott got an A- on his 'test' and the doctor suggested that our infertility and my terrible pains were due to Endometriosis- so on October 12th Dr. Poonsak preformed my laproscopy and found Endo in stage 2 (stage 4 indicates permanent infertility)

Sadly, the scar tissue has completely blocked my left fallopian tube; but to get me to ovulate from my one good tube I'm on a low dose of Clomid. (You weren't kidding about those hot-flashes, Andrea!)

Praise the Lord that Dr. Poonsak was able to burn away all the built up scar tissue behind my womb (he showed us the before and after pictures) (and mom, I don't care what you say, I'm NOT beautiful on the inside) hahaha- and I'm about 90% pain free now!! Thank you Lord!


~On that note, let me praise the Lord for how he has sustained us while we've been waiting. Of course we've been angry and confused, anxious and excited- but these words have been proven true in our lives "You will seek me and find me. When you seek me with all your heart, I will be found by you," declares the Lord"Jeremiah 29:13

Seeking the Lord does not disappoint; looking back over my journal I count at least once a day that I begged God to give us children. I also asked that he move my heart to bless His name no matter what His answer is to us; God has answered that prayer and given us a peace that passes all understanding. That doesn't stop the tears with every negative pregnancy test, but it has put the bitterness to rest.


Emily asked me how I was feeling during this time and I told her I had come to this realization- Endometriosis could have left me completely scarred- but if God has seen fit to give us children, no disease can hinder Him. Job 23:13 "But He stands alone, who can oppose Him? He does whatever He pleases. He carried out His decree against me, and many such plans He still has in store."

Last month I was reading John Piper's book "What's the Difference" (highly recommended) and he gave a list of godly character traits for men and women- on the ladies list was "Enduring".

Hebrews 12:7 It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline.

I don't agree with people who say that hardships come as God's punishment- as a Christian my punishment has been paid in full- enduring God's discipline simply means, like a good Father, He won't always say yes to everything I ask for.